Have you read the book?
I have.
Cover to cover.
Many times over.
I've read it myself.
I've had others read it to me.
Compelling stuff.
Read the book and you get it all.
Sci-Fi, fantasy...angels and demons..other worlds.
Romance...betrayal...adultery....lust and murder.
Action, adventure, treasure...
The setting covers gardens, deserts, mountains and seashores..and caves and lions dens and fiery furnaces.
There are board room intrigues...throne room debaucheries, home births in barns.
Throw in a couple menopause babies and random muggings, and miracles and great epic poems.
On the down side there are a few boring genealogies...sorry.
Back on the upside..don't forget the classic underdogs... and the bad guys get it in the end.
It's a best seller.
It's also banned in several countries around the world.
People die for possessing this book.
They also die hopeless without it.
The movie?
We're living it.
Don't you hate it when the movie is nothing like the book?
I have known this book as long as I can remember.
Portions of it are deeply embedded in my psyche.
How can it be that at 40 I am still wrestling?
With the author no less?
I believe the author..I do.
He is all knowing after all.
What I am trying to figure out is why I feel like I live in a perpetual exam room.
Like every waking moment is a test to see if I got it right.
If I could just get the proper combination of humility, faith, confession, action, generosity, forgiveness and love.
If I could just get them in the proper order, in the right sequence...in the right amounts..then the magic door would open....and I could rest.
Peace...is illusive today....but no worries...Hope still exists.
The sun is up..the birds are at the bird feeder..the fire is crackling merrily in the wood stove...
My husband is out of work...the bank account is empty...the credit cards are maxed...
Oh...is this too much information?
This is the setting of my movie....today.
Or is it?
We so easily define ourselves and others by what we can see.
They are holidaying in Maui....
They are building a new home...
They are splitting up...
He is dying of...
That church is growing...
That church is not...
They are succeeding...
They are failing...
What did they do right?
What did they do wrong?
Which is your movie?
What does your set look like?
Drama drama drama....
enough with the drama...
we all have our secrets.
we all have our hidden places.
places no one sees.
I would prefer to keep them hidden.
I hate the thoughts of someone out there saying...see I told you it wouldn't work for them..they are doing it all wrong. If only they had done it our way..If only they had listened. They got just what they deserved. Maybe now they will come around.
Too late.
The secret is out.
The movie is just like the book.
It's a tell all.
What do I have to lose?
What do I believe?
I believe the author....not necessarily the actors.
I believe the director...not the critics.
The creator....not the crew.
The lead not the leading lady...
What is in my way...blocking my view...skewing my perspective...is myself.
Kim Clement says that in order for a person to have insight you must first go blind.
Today I choose to go blind.
The story...the book... it is a love story.
Everyone loves a love story.
I forgot... this morning...that it was.
There are two lead parts in the story.
The lover...and the beloved.
The lover doesn't meet his beloved in a swanky Hollywood Hotel...after her daily massage, manicure, hair appointment and shopping spree on the boulevard.
He meets her in the desert...sleeping with his enemy...smelling of incense offered to other gods.
She failed.
The exam.
Completely.
He took her back to himself...again and again.
He pursued her.
He wooed her.
He wrapped her in himself.
He transformed her...with love.
The center.
The lover.
The key to my soul.
The key to the peace that seems so illusive today.
I believe.
He is big enough.
Beautiful enough.
Pure enough.
Generous enough.
Kind enough.
Love enough.....
I can fall into him...
And hopefully...after all these years...see what he sees...
It must be something incredible...something beyond comprehension...
I have to close my eyes.
In order to truly see.
what is...
Read the book....
Check out the movie....you're in it...playing opposite the lead.
Its a blockbuster.
Guaranteed.
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Honey...you are so much better at writing than I am. You have the gift...the words...the flow...what is a poor old guitar player like suppose to do with talent like that. Write the score to the movie?...no! Couldn't even come close. You've got it babe...and I've got you...that's all that matters.
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